PMR

opps , PMR gtting near le :)

is time for me to have 100% prepare for my real PMR !!! CPY !! gambateh :D <3

after PMR , i'll wait for his message and i hope he send to me first :)


i miss my boy :'(



erm.....i think that all for today la , i really nid to study :P

is time for me to give up :')

i know you reject me in many different type of reason but i'm ok with it :')
i realize it alreay , i wont be texting you anymore ....
i don't want to disturb you , just stop avoiding me with many kind of reason...


i accept the truth now , im fine :)
i just hope that we still can be friends
i try to give up on you and forget everything you chat with me :')
i really wont bother you anymore , i know you just care and treat me like your sister .
i got tired of waiting but still no matter what i will wait till you tell me the answer and text me first :')



you said at first before knowing me you dislikes texting and after you know me you like texting with me :') at that time im really happy but it was just texting ...




that's all i update...i hope he see this post :')





 new picha ;) teeeeeeheeeeeeeeee xD <3

的人谁爱我:)
不是我不爱你，只是我需要放弃我们之间的关系，因为我的学习。

我很抱歉：'（


*请不要说我给这种原因，说我骗你。



的人总是鼓励我：'）

eng shu yi <3
感谢陪我：'）
你教我很多东西，我不应该听你的“我不希望我的朋友给人撒谎”


while reading my blog give you to have a song :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0_DyJpiK68 :')

no one ever know how i feel at all , 

i just keep it to myself :) <3

i hope that my happiness will be back to me after PMR i really need to score all A's 

 my hair got a bit kek suii >< ignore it

wee ~ my grey colour lens so long didn't wear le

i think im going to wear it on my school carnival day .

who wanna come ? 

place : smk seri mutiara 

time : 8am-3pm

date : 30/6 

everyone are welcome :)

i think i update till here jek la... :) 

my eyes are already swollen , need to go rest if not tomorrow one eye close one eye open go school XDD

ong chit shiang :'(

i wanted to ask you , where are you ? :'(


i miss you badly !!!!!!!!! your hadphone out of credit or you don't want to choi me? :'(

im so sorry , i have read your blog...i cannot believe it...i thought you lie to me but you didnt , you have been very honest to me and i don't know , im so terrible , im ashame to be call "CPY" T^T



im so very sorry !!! please reply my message :'( i really need you now...hope you forgive me and not angry me...you text me the way like you very angry at me :((



please reply me...i cry non-stop jor :'((( I MISS YOU AR PIG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! </3

i started to begin know whom i love the most...

ong chit shiang :'(

i want you , i need you , i LOVE you !!!!!!!


i just found out that , whom i love the most and i cant live without ...


is you !!!!!! everything i think is YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!! i really cant give you up :'( is hurts me

why?

当我不在这里，
请不要问我，我在哪里，

你为什么要玩我的感情？
我只不过是给你的玩具

我不高兴
为什么呢？你是这样吗？

我想你即使不会在乎，如果我不在这里，在所有的 :')

simple post :)

hey , guess what i saw in my phone this early morning ? xD

a message from that BENDAN :P 

which write :

shopo babun !!!!!!

sleep le ma? wake up please , imissyou ! ><

why topup for me ><

my happy tears fall when i saw the message 

time :12.07am wa... xDD

love you ! <3

i wanted to as him...what is the answer now.. "yes" or "no"

i'm not sure yet..is confusing me .../.\ i wish yes...myabe in my dream he will answer me yes in real life..i'm not sure...is been a few days i have dreamed about him and me... > <

anyway..that all for now..i feel like i'm sick /.\

bye blog :)

let's starts with a simple post barh~
one day i think is tuesday 3/4/12
in the van i heard this sweet loved song <3
"shower me with your love"
anyone heard of it? o.0..

haha...ok la..i just wanted to tell my blog that my love to him are getting stronger../.\
can he feel it? @@ i think not....but i wish to tell him.
maybe on 30/06/2012 , he will know everything that hide inside my heart..but i'm not sure he can make it to the carnival or not... :(
i wish he can !!!!!!!
i wanted to talk to him so much , he don't even pick up my phone call..like he don't want me to listen his voice... T^T
i hope he wont angry i write like this because this is where i can tell my feeling :'(


skip barh ---------


he just post ot my wall saying that he will be away this few days , and guess what? that bendan lost his phone don't know go where jor..no wonder i msg wont reply me even though i topup for him already.../.\
well, the thing that surprise me is he call me a "babun" = =
i only know that i miss him so much...did he? o.0 :(


at facebook i found one link...



i miss you BENDAN ! :(











today shopping with my shu yi..i feel like i shopping with you haiz..but some how , i also wont have the chances to go out with you la.. ;')



this picture..when shu yi put her hand on my shoulder...i feel like you are the one who put on it..but not... :(


ok la...enough posting :')
*tears fall non-stop

goodbye to the old ones , hello to the new ones :)

from the day you have blocked me ,
i already started to hate since :)
so please don't act innocent and come tell me that i'm your "best friend"


acctually , when you say that word on you call me that night...my heart was like "hey , boy do we know each other? :') "



you broke up with me is becuase of her..she have everything but i don't...

hey boy , let me tell you , i'm special but on your word..i'm not cause you don't even know me and i feel that i should have left you long ago :)


now..
we cant be together because of the thing we have been through .
we cant be friends because it hurts too much .
we cant be enemy because we were once inlove .
we only can be strangers where we started to avoid each other :)



boy , i can live without you in a happy life , where my friends,daughters and my family is supporting me :D <3



i'm so glad that you have left me for good , now i only know the real you PLAYBOY
you love her is because of what?
good-hearted? o.0


please...people are calling her auntie...don't you know that?


a form 3 boy in a relationship with a form 5 -.-


to me is just awkward....but nevermind..is your life...





is good to be single :D <3 at least i still have the one i loved..but i'm waiting :)

我误会

我不能相信，我误解了他......

一整天我尝试，为什么呢？

因为我不知道如何后，我收到的消息...

我觉得这样的错误

我的心很痛苦

我不知道为什么我不能如此痛苦自己，就像我不喜欢自己，也不爱自己。

我开始恨自己现在和以后

很痛苦，真的 :'( </3

tear drops...

dear blog...

my tear drop again... :'(
i cant thinking of him when i force myself not to... T^T
it hurts me alot..
my heart hurt , breaks...
he offline when i cant chat with him and he didn't even reload his handphone...
i feel so unlucky yesterday night , i shouldn't have reply him and chat with him... x(
if i had reply him then today my day wont go through so bad x((((((


can i tell myself not to fall for him..
i keep telling myself give up !
but in the end i cant give up
i cant help it , it just to strong my love to him x'(



i love him so what?
no one's ever care about me even my cousin say "so"?
looks like i got no hope...



damn it...i cannot let my ex live better than me..i must choose to live better than him !
T^T
in the outside i say like this..what about inside...
i'm weak in everything i cry not because i'm weak is because i have been staying for too strong T^T



is time for me to say goodbye  :') <3

为什么呢？

为什么呢？
我还以为你爱我...
我错了......

好吧，我不会放弃 :)

我还是爱你...
我爱你跟我聊天的方式
我喜欢的方式，中方对此有何评论今天我的照片<3 <3 <3 <3



你对我说，慢慢慢慢......你是什么意思？
我不知道......也许我是NOOB o.0


好吧，我等着你的答案......我希望你的答案是“yes” ;')

i'm so going to cry out loud...

seriously..my blog been hacked by some one that i felt guilty to let him know i like him.../.\


skipped it can i...T^T
crying while updating blog..


ok..today have a date with my parents at jusco maluri..well acctually we're suppose to go sungai wang and times square to buy my things then my mom face turn black...*angry
mummy * no offense yarh..

then off we go... trulalalalalalala~
Jusco Maluri.. xD
at first go where? MPH of course..buy maths 2004-2011 revision book for what? o.0 PMR
then i try to find my komsas book to do homework obviously don't have ... haizzz -________-


then where we eat.. ofcourse my favourite place...
NANDO'S yum~~



later on i buy my stationary..oh yeah..!! DOMO-KUN !!! <3.<3

my favourite...


oh yeah almost forget..my photo on today look :D

 nice? o.0 haha comment yarh  <3.<3

i love him !!!

well,lets start about it...
i started to fall for one guy in my facebook and i don't know why..
i keep forcing myself not to..cause i don't want to get hurt anymore... T^T
he made me happy whenever i'm upset..i felt so wrong to fall for him...i think now is not the best time to let him know i love him... T^T
can he feel that i like him not just only close friends nor just best friends :(
i want him to know...but i was afraid to tell him...


on that day his hp no credit he send me MMS with free ..
he send me a hello kitty background... :'(
i keep telling myself he wont fall for me why?
he can have a relationship with a B*tch for 4 years... haizz
he wont...maybe he just treat me for his best friend / close friend / small sister..



seriously he make me feel warm whenever i feel lonely / bored and upset..he was there for me to cheer me up..just one message to him...but i don't know why..he can cheer me up in a fast way...;'(

my daily's horoscope :
 You will feel a warm, loving, supportive energy come over you today. You might even experience a spontaneous healing of some kind. An inner awareness is releasing blocks and helping you to a more satisfied and comfortable sense of inner peace.






i just he will know my feeling one day... :')
waiting for the answer...if the answer no..than am i going to give up? will i wait..? i still don't know , i just know today is my day , tomorrow "???" 




well that all for today...very long already didn't update my blog ><


sorry blog kaki...

long time no update blog xD

where to start yarh? hmm...ok...


almost one month i didn't even log in my blog because of what?
him lo...
if you all know who is him :'D
he like other girl lurh..the only thing i need to do is go along with all my happy friends who will always be there for me when i' down... :') <3 i love you guys...well i'm not going to tell here because they have been a precious friends to me...




all the thing i have done last year was wrong..well what is past than is past..
i have to forget it , is the most hurt memories i have last year and now..
even thought i liked or fall in love on someone.. can i please don't want to let them know .. why?
i doesn't want to get hurt anymore is hve my life he has his...




well today just have a nice date with my sorpor jie.. casuarina yoong ..xDD <3
she make me so damn happy today .. is not wrong for me to have her as my sister cause she make me awake and ofcourse my friends also....





oh yeah almost forgot x)
-H@pPy ^@l3nT!n3 D@y .. <3 -












issh..ignore my kusut-masai hair >w<


well..happy single valentines :) <3


that's all for now.. <3 you all

im so hurt...

dear.. chong teng sam..


why did you treat me like this? 
now that i have this sick is because of you..
did you care my feeling? 
i hurt my backbone just to prove to you that girl can be strong as boy too..

:'( </3 *heartbroken 




did you still remember what you told me..?
i wont forget you know.. :'( </3 




i cant smile again.. :(

today 7pm++ my kah yann and kah yee so 38 !

wahahahah..~we just take pic jek larh~

 

i know like sakai -.-

still got alot but not yet upload so i let you all see this first larh~ <3 :)

take by Kah yee my cousin XD